Dusty Sky

I feel so tired everyday.
I wonder why.


Sigh.

Lab reports not done yet.

To my fucking excuse of a dad, I don't think there's anything wrong with sleeping til 9.30 on a HOLIDAY.
Also, I am not your freaking slave. So go wash your own things. TYVM.
Lastly, why don't you treat mum better?
I swear to god, if I ever married a guy like you, I would divorce you in the blink of an eye.
Why?
1) You don't buy her things. Not even on your freaking wedding anniversary.
Is it too much to ask you to like, buy her a small box of chocos or bring her out to a simple dinner?
2) You don't even bother to bring her to work. Yeah, you're busy.
More like you're lazy and don't wanna wake up at 5.30am
3) You don't show any concern at all.
Mum: " I have a headache."
Dad : " You sleep too much alr."

*rolls eyes*

4) You don't give mum allowance.
Yes, I know she's a working adult, but most of the things that we 3 kids want are paid by HER.
Wouldn't it be fair that you like, uh, sponsor a little?

5) He doesn't talk to her nowadays.
Why?
Cos my mum sleeps in late on her days off, that's why.

Which is why, you motherfucking excuse of a dad, that I would have a divorce if my husband was like YOU.
Motherfucker.

Also, I actually went mentally retarded recently and lent my sister money.
When I lent her, I asked her :
"I want the FULL $500 within 3 days' time. CAN OR NOT?"
she was like, "yeahyeah, can."

It's been like a week now and I don't even have 50cents.
FYI, she got her allowance yesterday.

Wow.
What a shocker.
I TOTALLY DID NOT EXPECT THAT.
*rolls eyes*
Don't fucking make promises you can't fucking keep.
I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL NEVER HELP YOU AGAIN.
IF I DO, I WILL COOK OUR FAMILY'S GUINEA PIG AND EAT IT.

there.

I've been feeling depressed about the money.
friends and family were like: "haiya, let it go la."

WHY SHOULD I?
I don't even bear to spend 30bucks on a pair of shoes for myself.
I'm a girl too. I like shopping.
But when I see a nice dress or a nice pair of shoes, I peek at the price tag and walk away.
For me, spending more than 20bucks on MYSELF is too much a luxury already.
I wear the same darned clothes and the same pair of shoes everyday.
Heck, usually I wear the same pair of shoes until it really can't be worn anymore.

I don't even bear to spend $100 on clothes and shoes on CNY for myself.
Why should I give it to other people?
I starve, I save like crazy, do shit jobs just to get that puny amount of cash!
she wants money?
GO WORK FOR IT.
everybody does, I don't see why shouldn't she.
I'm so depressed.

I DO want new shoes, new clothes, new bags but...
after dumping $500 in the sea, I don't see that happening.
Sigh.

Not to mention it is the final one which carries the most percentage?
Wow.

And I thought it was next Thursday.
So now I'm sitting around,
like an idiot, with no idea how on how the hell do i get started with revision.

There is absolutely nothing I know how to do.
Nothing.
Zip. Zero. Zilch.
And it doesn't help that I've no help.
Well, this is all very dandy.


Yay.

Am looking forward to repeating this shitty course next sem.

And next sem I am definitely getting a tuition teacher.
I didn't want to, seeing how burdened my parents are.
But there is no choice, is there?
I thought I could rely on classmates' help but...
never mind.

Sometimes its better to rely on your own.

So frustrated.
And I don't know why.
Maybe its because I know I'll fail my test tomorrow?

 

High fever + Cough + Sore throat.

And I had to take a test in that condition.
T____T
Walao eh, I almost puked during the test can.
Some more got one question you gotta flip here flip there X 1000000 times.
My headache + nausea X200000 times lor. Wth.
Thank god I didn't puke.
Or the LT will smell like my puke instead of smelly feet.
Which might be a good thing as it will actually prompt the management to buy some air fresheners
and to open the windows once in a while to make everything better?

Sigh.

I hate having sore throats.
You can't drink hot soup or eat hot stuff.
And I can't eat ice cream/drink soft drinks/cold water cos I have a cough.
Wth.

And my mum had to go and buy two boxes of ice cream home today.
T_____T
By the time I recover, all of it would probably be gone.
ZZZZ.

Sleeping + eating + eating medicine all day.
Sianzzz.

I feel so miserable sobzsobz.
Gotta go drink cough med now.
I feel so sleeeeeeeeeepyyyyyy.

Hope I can recover after some resting.
And lots of water.
And pi pa gao.

~~~

... O WAIT, I AM NEVAH STRESSED.

zzzzz.
Just a bit worn out.

PED test tmr, Personal reflection due tmr, I have almost no moolah left..
sigh.

Gotta go type out personal reflection later and go through the slides for PED.
Gotta start revision already. No time for anymore slacking.
I think I'd start with Engineering maths and Biochem.
Then OC, I guess?
Sigh.

 

Am currently having PED now.
Got back the results for last week's test : D
Well, at least I passed, ne?

Darn it la, I srsly hatehatehate PED!
>.<
How the hell do you expect me to do the assignments when I don't even understand the questions?
>:C

RAWR.

Anyways, I've decided to buy all 3 of Breakerz' new album~
ohohoho.

Gonna go and order today, else I'll keep changing my mind.
>.<
 

Just saw the covers for LAST † PRAY / Zettai ! I LOVE YOU,
and I must say I totally spazzed by myself for like 2 and a half minutes.

What the hell, I'm gonna buy all 3! I just decided!
I really should stop being wishy-washy, ne.
So.. all three plus shipping = 5720 JPY
And 5720 JPY = $87.7591 SGD

The price is what's holding me back lor, I mean, I can buy so many other things with the money.

Hello, poor student here okay~ TwT
Butbutbut~

I think I'll continue to be wishy-washy for another few days...
TwT

Why does it have to cost so much sobz.
I wonder how much it'll cost if I bought it at HMV Singapore?
>.<

Aurrghhhhhh.

Should I buy? Should I? 

When I have project engineering and GS presentation slides to do?

@__@

I always do the wrong things at the wrong times, ne?
(But my sketch turned out nice! >.<)

Wanted to sketch Aki-sama but.. with my skills currently.. orz
Managed to sketch a chibi version of him tho', ohoho~
(But I can't be arsed to upload it. >.<)

Anyways, Microsoft Visio I HATE YOU.
If the PED assignment was just drawing on paper I might've finished it last week.
But no, It has to be Visio. ORZ

And what do I do for my GS?!
Choose an occasion and choose clothing that are suitable and vice-versa.
I said I would do a concert, but...
Whatever la! At the most go google later lor.

Sigh.
Hate assignments.

QC test next week.
Fuck it.
I'm tired of everything already.
 

Phew.
Summary for this week :
-Biochem test = okay
-Biochem presentation = okay
-Math test = I'll  be grateful if i can pass


Lol. Speaking of the maths test today,
I just realized that we have an awe~some~ lecturer.
He kept giving us hints and didn't care about the fact that there are three girls "discussing" during the maths test.
*________*

That lecturer is awesome, I tell you.
He knew we were "discussing" and "helping each other out" but didn't say anything~
Lolol.

Went to take neoprints during the ridiculously long 3-hour break.
I forgot to do my  \m/ pose lor. ~_~

Anyways, during the last lecture today, I sat behind a girl with serious B.O
Hello? How hard is it to use some deodorant?

Never mind.
Fell asleep AGAIN when I reached home.
I can't help it okay, I'm exhausted.
Shall force my sister to cough up the money that she owes me~
So that I can go buy the Fighterz DVD.

off to sleep again~
oyasumi~

.. cos this week isn't going to be an easy one.
:/

Let's count the major things this week :
-Biochem presentation tomorrow
-Biochem test tomorrow
-GSM presentation slides to complete
-Maths test on Friday

Shall go study biochem later.
Have to start studying for maths tomorrow.
:/
 

我好累~ 不管是精神或身体上。
哎，不明白为什么有些人就是那么的虚伪。
你一定要搞到没人喜欢你为止吗？
一定要这样吗？

I admit, I'm really selfish.
But, you are far worse than me.

shall not talk about depressing things.
Going to study for biochem tmr.